The universe knows she is dying like a shark knows swimming;
she knows how it feels, the ebbs and the flows and the slow
realignment of matter and energy. There are certain laws she
follows and some days she curses thermodynamics (a bitch).
She tries to savour moments (measured in dipoles and galactic rotation)
but finds most indistinguishable, and the great furnaces
of her home rotate, burn fiercely and explode.
She is threatened by the edge of time, cutting her evenly
and sapping her warmth, scattering stardust on eternal winds;
she knows soon she will sit forever and unchanging.
The universe is a fighter, and with some stardust crafted,
i
And it makes me feel good to be around you by Ntebrx, literature
Literature
And it makes me feel good to be around you
It’s funny to think I loved you once, or
to think I thought so; because who knows
what love is, other than those who’ve found it
and finding it can’t have been much more than
the familiar flutters and nonsense that’d get me
incensed to be around you.
I see pictures of you now and that’s all,
little snapshots of your heart-stops and
it’s numbing knowing that I’d had dreams of
(what comes to words as) being yours or you
being mine – I guess what I wanted was your
attention, your time, because in my eyes
it was valuable. Like corvids I collect shiny things
instinctively, like the corner of your ey
you’d hardly notice him now; in fact,
you’ve probably passed his ruffled form before;
he used to be like everyone else,
on the bus;
he’d get on here and off there,
heading to a someplace or somewhere
sometime; he liked buses -
they were quiet and steady, usually;
maybe as a baby his parents took him on car trips
to get him to sleep, and he felt it then;
he could relax in the steady motion and soon
he’d take the bus just ‘cause, when he didn’t need to
and just for a couple blocks, a guilty pleasure;
watching the other travellers come and go and
imagining the froms and tos they had while slowly finding
fewer
It’s funny to think I loved you once, or
to think I thought I did; because who knows
what love is, other than those who’ve found it
and finding it can’t have been much more than
the familiar flutters and nonsense that’d get me
incensed to be around you.
I see pictures of you now and that’s all,
little snapshots of your heart-stops and
it’s numbing knowing that I’d had dreams of
(what comes to words as) being yours or you
being mine – I guess what I wanted was your
attention, your time, because in my eyes
it was valuable. Like corvids I collect shiny things
instinctively, like the corner of your
I used to spend a lot more time in days than night.
But now every time the pendulum swings
and brings me out for another round
it seems I spend a little more time
in the darkness, not the light
and now I wonder if I live
in darkness and light
is becoming just
the in-between
and moments
of lucidity
are in the
darkness,
all else is
dreams.
In the ashes of the house
he might find his wife and daughters
or maybe they
are spread in the skies
like solar winds
or butterflies; one spark.
he imagines summer –
warm, light breeze
no wind chime,
quiet,
sweet – it seems
like them again.
he has their laughs
at the edge of hearing;
sees their smiles,
flush of their cheeks;
their serious, their quiet,
their mouth twitch as they sleep
he lets his dreams take him
hardly feels the sting
We’re pacing by the polished floors
and cinder walls and wrought-iron doors
but find the wardens quiet, hidden –
gone, even, from this prison, to other
dungeons and dragons; villains
to build little brick-by-brick creations
and cages and pin little butterfly wings
on murals but
we hadn’t noticed that their hammer blows
and blocks on rows had faded;
they’d found that man was both the sculptor
and the piece and we’re pacing by
the floors we polished and walls we cindered
and the doors whose iron was wrought
by the chains we coddled on our arms.
Day by day we’d swing the bars of cages
and pin the wings of but
Sometimes the air I breath is just air.
Sometimes the air I breath is everything,
sometimes it’s a river of calm.
Sometimes the air I breath is a headache,
heavy, chemical and damp.
Sometimes the air I breath is god
and I sit as still as I can and breath slowly
because I don’t want to lose my hold on it.
Some days I run my hand through the air,
as my fingers tingle with electricity that
sparks and snaps through my veins;
some days the coffee is better,
I inhale it and then breathe out roasted
honey verve.
Some days the air tastes sweet,
and yellow leaves on grey sky
is all I ever wanted; some days
the rain tastes like spearmint
You are in the eraser dust
of every unwritten line
lightly written in pencil fine,
so as to hide from prying eyes.
You are the white of my mind
when I’m reminded and found
a million miles away
not lost like they thought but searching.
You are on the back of the scrapings
dropped from my scratching
at the ceiling of the sky,
tapping on the floor of my dreams.
You are the filled-up spaces between my fingers,
the scratch to my every itch,
the fever to my cool
and the space between my every aspired star.
But you are the path that leads
a walk through solid walls.
You are the eraser dust that falls in my eyes
that I get from scratching
Take me to the fire and turn me into coal
I’d do it all again, I’d sell my happy soul
I’ve got the memory of that snake black gold
To keep me cool in the hells of old
So douse me in holy gases and rub them in my skin
Light a dozen torches and tie me up therein
Sing a thousand psalms and tell your god I’ve sinned
Take me to the fire and brand me in wind.
I love a little lake of cool
with eyes blue as the moon
hair like straw in summer
hot like summer noon.
So take me to the fire, see,
for loving liquid gold;
I’d rather burn in fiery hells
than drown in frigid cold.
The universe knows she is dying like a shark knows swimming;
she knows how it feels, the ebbs and the flows and the slow
realignment of matter and energy. There are certain laws she
follows and some days she curses thermodynamics (a bitch).
She tries to savour moments (measured in dipoles and galactic rotation)
but finds most indistinguishable, and the great furnaces
of her home rotate, burn fiercely and explode.
She is threatened by the edge of time, cutting her evenly
and sapping her warmth, scattering stardust on eternal winds;
she knows soon she will sit forever and unchanging.
The universe is a fighter, and with some stardust crafted,
i
And it makes me feel good to be around you by Ntebrx, literature
Literature
And it makes me feel good to be around you
It’s funny to think I loved you once, or
to think I thought so; because who knows
what love is, other than those who’ve found it
and finding it can’t have been much more than
the familiar flutters and nonsense that’d get me
incensed to be around you.
I see pictures of you now and that’s all,
little snapshots of your heart-stops and
it’s numbing knowing that I’d had dreams of
(what comes to words as) being yours or you
being mine – I guess what I wanted was your
attention, your time, because in my eyes
it was valuable. Like corvids I collect shiny things
instinctively, like the corner of your ey
you’d hardly notice him now; in fact,
you’ve probably passed his ruffled form before;
he used to be like everyone else,
on the bus;
he’d get on here and off there,
heading to a someplace or somewhere
sometime; he liked buses -
they were quiet and steady, usually;
maybe as a baby his parents took him on car trips
to get him to sleep, and he felt it then;
he could relax in the steady motion and soon
he’d take the bus just ‘cause, when he didn’t need to
and just for a couple blocks, a guilty pleasure;
watching the other travellers come and go and
imagining the froms and tos they had while slowly finding
fewer
It’s funny to think I loved you once, or
to think I thought I did; because who knows
what love is, other than those who’ve found it
and finding it can’t have been much more than
the familiar flutters and nonsense that’d get me
incensed to be around you.
I see pictures of you now and that’s all,
little snapshots of your heart-stops and
it’s numbing knowing that I’d had dreams of
(what comes to words as) being yours or you
being mine – I guess what I wanted was your
attention, your time, because in my eyes
it was valuable. Like corvids I collect shiny things
instinctively, like the corner of your
I used to spend a lot more time in days than night.
But now every time the pendulum swings
and brings me out for another round
it seems I spend a little more time
in the darkness, not the light
and now I wonder if I live
in darkness and light
is becoming just
the in-between
and moments
of lucidity
are in the
darkness,
all else is
dreams.
In the ashes of the house
he might find his wife and daughters
or maybe they
are spread in the skies
like solar winds
or butterflies; one spark.
he imagines summer –
warm, light breeze
no wind chime,
quiet,
sweet – it seems
like them again.
he has their laughs
at the edge of hearing;
sees their smiles,
flush of their cheeks;
their serious, their quiet,
their mouth twitch as they sleep
he lets his dreams take him
hardly feels the sting
We’re pacing by the polished floors
and cinder walls and wrought-iron doors
but find the wardens quiet, hidden –
gone, even, from this prison, to other
dungeons and dragons; villains
to build little brick-by-brick creations
and cages and pin little butterfly wings
on murals but
we hadn’t noticed that their hammer blows
and blocks on rows had faded;
they’d found that man was both the sculptor
and the piece and we’re pacing by
the floors we polished and walls we cindered
and the doors whose iron was wrought
by the chains we coddled on our arms.
Day by day we’d swing the bars of cages
and pin the wings of but
Sometimes the air I breath is just air.
Sometimes the air I breath is everything,
sometimes it’s a river of calm.
Sometimes the air I breath is a headache,
heavy, chemical and damp.
Sometimes the air I breath is god
and I sit as still as I can and breath slowly
because I don’t want to lose my hold on it.
Some days I run my hand through the air,
as my fingers tingle with electricity that
sparks and snaps through my veins;
some days the coffee is better,
I inhale it and then breathe out roasted
honey verve.
Some days the air tastes sweet,
and yellow leaves on grey sky
is all I ever wanted; some days
the rain tastes like spearmint
You are in the eraser dust
of every unwritten line
lightly written in pencil fine,
so as to hide from prying eyes.
You are the white of my mind
when I’m reminded and found
a million miles away
not lost like they thought but searching.
You are on the back of the scrapings
dropped from my scratching
at the ceiling of the sky,
tapping on the floor of my dreams.
You are the filled-up spaces between my fingers,
the scratch to my every itch,
the fever to my cool
and the space between my every aspired star.
But you are the path that leads
a walk through solid walls.
You are the eraser dust that falls in my eyes
that I get from scratching
Take me to the fire and turn me into coal
I’d do it all again, I’d sell my happy soul
I’ve got the memory of that snake black gold
To keep me cool in the hells of old
So douse me in holy gases and rub them in my skin
Light a dozen torches and tie me up therein
Sing a thousand psalms and tell your god I’ve sinned
Take me to the fire and brand me in wind.
I love a little lake of cool
with eyes blue as the moon
hair like straw in summer
hot like summer noon.
So take me to the fire, see,
for loving liquid gold;
I’d rather burn in fiery hells
than drown in frigid cold.